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Wow. Never knew all of you would agree with my status.

In Singapore, exams matter the most. Your parents won't give 2 shits whether you know more about quarks and the Drake Equation than them. If you score less than 100 out of 100, you're a retard, no questions asked.

I was feeling terrible when I put this up. At the rate it's going, it'll break my record of 15 likes on a status, from purely insightful comments about life. The previous record was Captain Obvious's survey results: Nine out of ten people believe that out of ten, one will always disagree with the other nine.

I'm currently down. I don't feel like eating much, sometimes surviving on 2 meals a day. I can't seem to start on Volume 7 of my HS novels. I can't seem to get excited by pretty much anything. Or in fact, I can't seem to get into any mood except extreme boredom and melancholy/catatonia.

On the other hand, there are things I enjoy. Somewhat...

Making notes are fun, especially when I'm paid to help do notes. It's just that I can't seem to wrap my head around DNA replication. I love that after the exam, in that 1 week period, our History teacher has booked a room for us so that every recess, we can go down and play Risk. Something about learning about WW2, but who cares?

Alright, now I've gotta restore my emotionless mask, instead of the screwed-up mood swings which are freaking out quite a few people. I kinda snapped after the camp. Won't recount the specifics here, but to put it in a way, I saw what my classmates saw, saw all the little signs that I wasn't welcome, and that's when the camel's back broke.

Now, what should I do? A Koizumi mask, or a Nagato mask? Both do have its perks, but I can maintain an emotionless face way better than maintaining a smile. Combine lack of emotions with a completely deadpan delivery of my sarcastic lines would usually a recipe for win. On the other hand, I do want people to be able to sense danger and get away before I blow my top. For example, with Koizumi, the moment my smile disappears, you know that the shit is about to hit the fan.

As for a Nagato face, I doubt any of my low-EQ friends can understand it. One thing is for sure. In the workforce, where knowing how to manipulate is one of the most important skills, my bullshit, knack for identifying the bigshots, and my snarky jokes will help me. My friends' and their love of cliques, alienation, dumb comments, childishness and inability to please the important people will get them screwed, and I want to be the one screwing them, or the one watching at least.

Mabel, *insert verb*